I used to write in here a lot.  I should start again.  I feel like I will be on my computer a lot more bc I live alone?  I don't have cable, and Chef is only so interesting.

 There are a lot of demons I am dealing with too.  Demons that you don't even know about because you have never questioned them or asked.  I am not perfect.  I am so far from it.  However I don't try and go out of my way to hurt people.  That malicious bone stayed with my dad when I left ( Read more... )

 So when something major comes into my life I get totally consumed by it at first.  Then I push it away and act like everything is ok and just be optimistic ( Read more... )

I am in Biggby's right now  BECAUSE I want internet.  AND I am SO stubborn, I'd rather walk here than pay for internet, which I know I would greatly enjoy and use daily, hourly, whatever.  I am freezing in the gd place.  I don't have a real shirt on bc I was hot after I came home from work.  I ended up with three cold drinks.  I almost got hit on ( Read more... )

Ha! Today's thing is about "do you have reoccurring dreams?  And explain ( Read more... )

May 6 Birthday Horoscope ( Read more... )

 So when I was 14 I was pretty stupid.  I did a lot of stupid things ( Read more... )

I've been pushing a lot of people away.

I don't know if it's because I'm tired of trying, or because I don't see the point anymore.

It's always me making the first move.

It's always them who get check mate.

OH OH and I had a dream my stepmom was going to join Twitter and I'm like...oh shit....

and I had to erase 88% of things I wrote. 

Uh oh, you know when Elliot Smith is on.  Oh man.  What a mopey artist.  
Twilight is an amazing song though.  Blah.

Last night I had ANOTHER dream about being on an island.  It was a not so nice dream.  I don't remember too much bc I kept waking up due to stomach aches.  :All I know is my family and I (the real one that hates me) went to this ( Read more... )