Have you ever done something and new everything was different from that moment on? I mean my impatience, my inability to wait... It bothers me yet everytime I set out to change it, I end up back at square 1. I thought I wanted something and finally got the chance for it to happen and when that chance came and went without me feeling any sense of ( Read more... )

Well... hmmm... where to start... the stress about my mom's party all swept back to me today like a 50 foot storm surge tsunami wave... I relized that since my sister wanted a party from 2-7:30, people probably would not be satisfied with cake and ice cream like originally anticipated... I also didn't get the roses ordered for my mom either... So ( Read more... )

So a little bit of strees is gone... Today I went with my sister and we bought EVERYTHING for my mom's party Sunday. Only a little bit of decorating and viola it is gonna be done... So I feel liek this party will be just add guests and the person of the evening and it will be all set...

Today is well better... My friend Mitch came over and watched anime until who knows when... I was so hyper though... starbucks double shot expressos suck ass... I mean it tastes so freaking awesome... that is why i sux... I bought 8 thinking ok I will have enough to get me through the week... yea lasted me yesterday... Like 4 hours...maybe. I was ( Read more... )

I happened to stumble upon my cousin who used to be my idol's blog... Me and him are like 7 years apart... when he was a senior in high school we (yes it is dumb, but hey it was so cool)would spend hours after school playing and battling pokemon... yes pokemon... well anyways as I stumbled across his blog he STILL plays... after alll these years I ( Read more... )

my luck has been shitty lately... I mean not just oh my dog got hit then I failed my test shitty, it's just been odd... Thursday and a misundersatnding to nmeet for coffee. Friday i had to call in to work because I locked my uniform and the keys in the car. Then when I finally got home I found out my brother had been arrested and i got yet another ( Read more... )

I am so tired emotionally and physically... I feel better though, between talking to my ameture shrinks and listening to sappy music I feel like I can get over this. Now it is time to forget everyone that has treated me like shit these last few weeks and make my summer something I am going to remember... THere is going to be some major planning in ( Read more... )

Time has been going by uber slow lately... I feel stuck in nothingness... Everyone but me has something (good or bad) going on... I wish I felt like me again that would be nice. I have no coinfidence in anyhting I do which stops me from doing alot of things I want to... I wish I could just be the outgoing I don't give a fuck what you think person ( Read more... )

So I have finally decided to update. This is the first actual public display of me since the shitty feeling went away. I feel fine now. I am back to the normal or whatever that can be considered... I am not happy because life still is pretty sucky if you have my cards in hand, but I am dealing with it better. Besides the fact I gat my Morgan back ( Read more... )

I just wanted to get on here quickly to tell you all I am still alive and I will more than likely see you all at one point soon... So yea... Bye guys.