add fuel to the fucking fire. "hey, whats up? what are you doing?"

translation: "i dont really care about you, but is megan with you? if not, what is she doing?"

my cell phone is my cell phone. i can understand when Craig calls because she is always with me and it's the only way for him to talk to her. but when people call and PRETEND to start a ( Read more... )

a phone call i've received too many times: "is megan serious with that other guy because... i kind of like her ( Read more... )

On November 18, 2003 Andrew from Something Corporate told me it was OK to download their music off of the internet for free. So I did ( Read more... )

i keep telling myself i'll update and i never do ( Read more... )

i didn't go to work today so i could take care of a lot of things for the household including (but not limited to) sweeping, dishes, cooking, grocery shopping, and paying bills ( Read more... )

i am less depressed now that i have a reason to be.

my grandmother died last night.

gone to new york until sunday.

deja vu. i hyped up this weekend so much and it ended with me driving home alone on the 417 crying at 3am. they kept saying i was ok to drive home, in reference to alcohol. little did they know, i didnt drink at all. and i wasn't worried about being intoxicated. i was worried about being alone. being drunk and emotional is about equal. i am lucky ( ( Read more... )

this morning i decided i'm going to write something positive, in light of all the horrible things going on to try and "look on the bright side of things" because the past week hasn't been 100% awful. but now i can't think of anything good to say. i'm very numb. our conversation just doesn't seem real. and i need to know if at any point i was wrong ( Read more... )

"I've learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon and all the less important ones just never go away. And the real pains in the ass are permanent. I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and it only takes suspicion, not proof, to destroy it. I've learned that whatever hits the fan will not be evenly ( Read more... )

loss of appetite ( Read more... )