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[skrad]

So yeah, I've been hanging out with friends alot lately. As weird as that may sound, it used to be a very once in a while thing. I've been talking with Jared, Jason, Chris, Zake(pronounced Zach) and Allen. I've been pretty bummed out lately and I am getting to the point where God doesn't seem accessible. Its really helping my songwriting though. I'

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[jasonfenson]

Man, sometimes I feel like God can't be anything accessible, He has to be something too big for us to grasp, some abstract concept that's never going to make sense to my puny dumb human brain. And yeah, He's that...

But when I start praying and begging for some comfort, begging that someone, anyone can hear me, I feel Him. I think that's what's so amazing about God...He's so beyond us, yet He allows Himself to become just enough "real" for us to feel Him, because He loves us, we're His little boys that He wants to hold and whisper "It will be ok."

And if it's all in my head, GREAT. But I don't think it is. I think it's real. I BELIEVE it's real. You can't prove faith. If you could it wouldn't be faith.

Why am I still writing? My fingers are on fire Brad. If there's one thing I can talk about right now it's belief.

[dreambug24]

Depression and God, Its weird how they seem to just fit. Not to say that God makes me depressed, He doesn't, but people seem to think about Him more while in a depressed state. Its like thats when they say "hey where are You...I thought You wouldn't let me get like this." But the truth is He is the one that will ALWAYS help you out of it. Its crazy to me how that works, I guess that If we really trust and depend on Him then maybe we would see thing more clearly and get depressed less often. I don't know I"m just rambling. I love you Brad. and when I say you or they I really mean we and I

[skrad]

Well, I've been trying to make myself feel better, ya know? I've been thinking and writing and drinking coffee and eating junk food... Well about that smoking thing, I don't do it all the time, I'm not some sort of a chain smoker or anything. It's just something that I do when I need to feel something, anything besides what I surround my own head with. I probably give myself more problems than I actually have, so I dunno.. I'm going to go...