i thought she was the one.. i thought she was the one for me.. someone who could handle me loving her.. someone who i wouldnt scare off again.. but shes jsut like everyone else now.. at the core of everything.. i scared her off.. just like everyone else i scared her away from me.. so it really truly is all my fault.. just like she was trying to ( Read more... )

broken..

hmm.. so i guess i lost then. wow.. seriously.. i did not expect that.

and so i have been betrayed by the one closest to me. what more is there to say? i am betrayed. nothing can excuse these actions.. these things said.. what terrible evewnts.. what terrible words.. what a horrible thing.. a betrayal.. my love is lost and betrayed. whats the use hiding what i feel? why not say it to the world. fuck.

as rebecca milliron would say: "so i officially hate my life."

si.. c'est fini. maudire-il. maudit-elle. maudit-ils. je detest ils. quand me sentirai bon encore? pourquoi est-ce elle doit etre avec lui?!

what is man after all but a hollow shell of shadows and dust? what is man but for emotions? does that make one human? to think and feel? not to think.. a flea can think. but to feel. to love. to mourn. does shedding blood make you human? but does rushing to someone's aide who falls and spills blood... to find beauty in all things.. joy and sorrow ( Read more... )

what if ( Read more... )

wow.. for the first time in months i actually felt like updating a online thing like this... i used to have a xanga.. but anyhow.. im burning a copy of the phantom of the opera..the one me and michelle watched.. haha.. im sure it sounds odd but i feel like i can finnaly watch it now and not get depressed.. cause.. like michelle said.. its not ( Read more... )

okay so i was thinking.. hash chewing gum... theres these make it yourself gum kits from walmart... add chocolate flavor.. like coco powder... and then crumble up your hash and simmer lightly over an open flame.. hahaha.. but seriosuly.. wouldnt that be great for the middle of math class? mmhmmm... hmm.. maybe.. it would absorb through the gums ( Read more... )