Went job hunting some today. All the cook jobs seem to be a bit away. But my dad is talking to a few people at places like gold medal, I picked up a few applications. I talked to the Four Corners Grille, left Dave a message there. I got a tracfone so jobs can call me cause my dad is pretty cool about these things. I think things will end well.

So I'm boned. Keith and lisa are understanding but I feel like a douche bag I am falling quickly behind in my fiscal duty. I dunno. I suck and abuse the good graces of my friends....or thats what it feels like to me. I don't know what to do lately. I am done smoking for a while untill I get a job.

Life confuses me. So today I drove home. It was pretty fun. I like having a car again. I need a purpose. I don't even want to wake up lately. I feel very useless in general. Stupid not having smoked or drank often enough to not feel. This is what happens when I'm not an alcholic or pothead. I tend to take good long hard looks at my life. lol Eh. I ( Read more... )

So I'm able to drive again....now I need to find me a job.

Just for the record the massive swings between insanely happy and suicidal depression that can happen back and forth in a three minute period that are characteristic of bi-polar type two really really really suck. It gives me headaches sometimes. the feeling life is awsome that I try to maintain at all times can quickly turn into a burning desire ( Read more... )

So for the last two days I did something I'm not used to. I tried to get someone to take me back after they were through with me. This is a far cry from my one chnce that most people have. After all that turns out I still suck alot. I have been thinking this over, running through every possible thing I could have done wrong that would have got me ( Read more... )

So life is an interesting thing. I sit here in as clear a mind as I have had in along time....no drugs are in me and I have not been drinking. I have been high on life lately. I love my friends like family. I played all weekend with Keith and Lisa. It was a stellar time. Drinking friday was pretty awesome also. My friends are wonderful people. ( Read more... )

Ok you were all right....she did come back. I don't suck and she did have school tommorrow. She is amazing.

So I must be the worst boyfriend ever. Because she never came back....even after she promised. I suck...

I have a home now. Yay! I live at the haunted mansion.