So I've been using this forum alot lately....probably one of the higher day to post ratios in this thing. There are many reasons for that. First and most important I have alot on my mind. This is an acceptable medium to excise it. These topics are, my future and how it terrifies me, my ability to interact with others and the trouble I have doing ( Read more... )

So I'm finally over Amy...the more I talked to her the easier it was to walk away. Watched a few movies that were MST3K'ed. It was pretty good.

SO last night I drank with Bad Andy. Breaking my body's St. Patricks day related embargo on booze. My tolerance was pretty low. I dunno but I needed that. It probably wasn't smart to break said sober streak but I've been out of sorts lately ( Read more... )

how I wish...I wish I didn't squish that fish

In an effort to begin functioning like a human being and not some sort or nocturnal beast I've been trying to re-format my sleep schedual. I'm tired and it's 1am......it's working.

So things are starting to look good again. I'm am debating quitting smoking all things. I stopped drinking because I was using it as a crutch to make myself not care what I was doing with my life. I mean I still am sad about a few things. Things that would have been devestating to me long ago...and had the potential to be. Hopefully I have taken ( Read more... )

Yesterday was a good day driving to boston aside.

Sigh.....I'm seeing it happen again

it's like 6:30 and I'm debating going to bed. I dunno. I have been really off lately. I feel lost and out of place. I can't wait for work.

So I start work again next week. That will be good. So I watched that moive butterfly effect which I am ashamed to say I love even though the cast and their acting ability are sub-par. But it always gets me thinking where I could be if I had made a diffrent choice during any major cusp of my life. If I could go back and try again would I make ( Read more... )