just confusing. i love it here. but i hate it. i want to go back. but keep goign foward. i have boys here. i had boys there. i need a man. i want my friends ive always had...by my side all the time. i wish i had more calls. i wish i had more attention. i got s job offer in charleston. i applied. we'll see if i get it. then i'll be back. maybe, but ( Read more... )

blue light special. all through the night. theres no t.l.c.... not even...with: vs. might ( Read more... )

and maybe i am too. i've got my job, its great. ive got my health, and thats fine. im poor. soon, i'll have no place to live. the city towed my car. im still looking for place to live. this is hard, wah! wah! you know what? you think its hard being in school? writing papers? going to class? try making a living for yourself. and finding a job. and ( Read more... )

and maybe i am too. i've got my job, its great. ive got my health, and thats fine. im poor. soon, i'll have no place to live. the city towed my car. im still looking for place to live. this is hard, wah! wah! you know what? you think its hard being in school? writing papers? going to class? try making a living for yourself. and finding a job. and ( Read more... )

for myself and my actions. what does that exactly mean. i have been thinking a lot about that. i havent come up with an answer. jsut questions to be answered. do i lie? who have i hurt and how much? who do i owe? do i owe anyone anything? what do i owe myself? do i take resposibility for my actions; albiet sexually, professionally, academically, or ( Read more... )

my job rules. my boss rules. my co-workers rule. my life is getting SO much better. I am getting happier everyday. i no longer miss my friends! because i love them so much. im turning all that into a differnt feeling. into a feeling of thankfulness, and appreciation that we know each other and have expressed love for each other. not everyone gets a ( Read more... )

i need to get this shit outta my head. its part what i been doing, what i need to do, some goals, some hopes, that kinda thing. and fuck myspace. too may creepy weirdos read my shit. id write it down but it odnt want my mother or brother or any other sneaky person to see it. but strangers and my friends in charleston, well thats fine with me ( Read more... )

well. here i am. i usually only write in here when im extremely mad. maybe thats not such a good idea. then all you people think im crazy depressed and that my lifes sucks. well its been better. well, more fun and with more hugs and less debt. i miss my innocence. i miss my old house. i miss charleston so very much. i wouldve stayed if i could have ( Read more... )

my boss keeps asking me why im being so crabby. im not crabby. i just dont talk at work. i sit there, enter data, and ask questions when i have them, get coffee and go to the bathroom way too much. so, this new job. i havent officially started yet. i want more money out of the guy. i think that i will get it out of him,eventually. but i need to be ( Read more... )

i got a job offer. im waiting for the salary info before i officially accept.