i cant really go out this month. i am defending my thesis aug 29th. i need to get into some kindof sleeping schedule and work more regularly. i know im the only one who can really change this but it would help if all of my friends knew this was my plan. you know, no late night phone calls. ealry morning phone calls would be better. no parties ( Read more... )

i woke up. took 2 ibuprofin, ate a bagel, then went back to bed. then i got up took a shower, and went back to bed. i woke up again smoked a cigarette, then went back to bed. i finally left the house at 4:00 to go to work. here i am and its 6::30. i will stay here until i am finished. then i will go home go to bed and get up at 8:30 tommrow. ( Read more... )

something happened to my brain. since teusday i have slept i think 4/5 of everyday. i go place and talk to people when i am awake but i really wish i was sleeping. when im sleeping im awake. i talk, scream, laugh, am loved, i hate, go to work, go shopping, i am rich, i even have sex and kiss people. if you know me youve probobly see this. i know i ( Read more... )

not physically. i feel ok there. my brain hurts. my heart too. i feel stepped on, used, and overlooked. thus far all of the poeple i put any trust in or really counted on have moved, are moving, fucked me over, or are wrapped up in other people/things. i dont want to be feeling like this, but i do. life is harrd for me right now. im at a major ( Read more... )

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im happy its friday but i partied all week so what the fucking differnce. i was goign to hand everyone copies of my thesis today, but i didnt. i slept until 2. i get away with everything. i wonder when im goign to get fucked royally to make up for so many easy times. does life work like that? it all depends ( Read more... )

yesterday i had a great day. i love being home and enjoying all my company. i love bones. so great. so great ( Read more... )

i will be in new orleans from this sunday until thursday. wish me luck at my conference. i should get quite a career boost out of this. i am nervous. i am finishing my resume tonight adn n tommorow and handing it out so i can hopefullly land a job. i am picking up my poster at work right now. its 11:30. im not even going out tonight. it shawnte b- ( Read more... )

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my mom is here. i have to get this poster done and a revision of my entire thesis done by friday. this fucking sucks. can i do it. YES! i HAVE TO! fuck fuck fuck fuck.
please god help me. or someone! anyone ahhhhhhhhhhhh