I wasn't really looking forward to my birthday but I was trying not to dread it. I was just going to treat it like any other day. Having thought about it I guess I'm pretty upset. I feel alone and forgotten. I don't really have any friends so I didn't do anything. It's the same thing pretty much every year ( Read more... )

I haven't using LJ in the longest time. It's hard to keep up for me some reason. The same pretty much goes for life. It's going by so fast. My mood has been stable but if it were a color it would be an almost constant grey. I see the light every now and then and the abyss too. So I'm doing "ok ( Read more... )

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I've been doing pretty decently (Actually somewhat good) the last couple of days. I've been exercising one hour each day. Today I've been iffy. I've been wondering why but the simplest answer would be because I didn't exercise today. I wanted to give my body some rest. I've honestly been kind of lonely. My brother is leaving for school on Tuesday ( Read more... )

It's raining and raining. I like to think that the sky is crying for me.

Damn I hate being negative. I'll be ok somehow. I'm not sure how but I'll figure something out.

My ex friendzoned me after I told her that I still had feelings for her. It looks like there's someone else in the picture. Apparently my powers of persuasion were strong enough to make her feel conflicted for about two weeks but in the end she decided that she just wants to be friends. She said even if he wasn't in the picture she wouldn't be sure ( Read more... )

If my life was a book, one of the biggest chapters in it would involve a certain ex who we'll call B. I've lingered on this chapter for so long because I don't know how to end it. I'm trying to move on but it's hard because I have one foot in the present and another in the past. I mean on one hand, part of me is open to meeting someone new and the ( Read more... )

I've been trying to make changes to my life but it's an uphill battle ( Read more... )

Palm trees and warm weather suit me. When I feel down just looking outside kinda improves my mood.

My heart is beating fast. It's hard to sleep with my anxiety. My mind is being flooded with worries that won't go away. I honestly don't know what to do. It's 3am and I wish I had someone to talk to.