There's a party tonight, but I'm not going. My mom offered to stay here and watch Azura for me, but I've got too much to do and, ironically, I'm not doing it. Corey and I are broken up. I know I've mentioned this a lot in my journal, but this time it's for good. I just don't love him like I used to. Chris and I are talking again now. I sort of want ( Read more... )

It's snowing, which means two good things for me. One, I don't have to go to school tonight and, two, I probably won't have to go to the dentist tomorrow. Yay, snow.

My mom ended up coming home early new year's eve, so I was at the party when the clock turned twelve. I didn't stay long, though, because Corey wanted to come back here. I start my first day of school Tuesday. I'm actually kind of nervous.

I can't believe that in about two hours it's going to be a new year. Time flies so quickly. Azura is asleep and i'm pretty much alone. Corey said he'd stop by, but, of course, he's not here. I'm dressed up and drinking non-alchoholic champagne. I'm probably going out to party after my mom comes home. She won't be here until after twelve, though. ( Read more... )

Azura will be six months old the day after Christmas. That's half a year. I feel like she's growing up too fast. If anyone ever reads this thing, I have a web site with updates and pictures of Azura on it. Feel free to look.

http://www.babiesonline.com/babies/b/babyzura/

I can't believe how much time has passed. Azura is sixteen weeks old as of yesterday. She can do so much now compared to a couple of months ago. She's mastered rolling, she's laughing, smiling, and playing with toys. Corey's not really the father I thought he'd be, but I guess that's okay. He supports us and he tries to be involved, so I guess that ( Read more... )

I knew this would be happen. I miss being pregnant. Briana and Jaime are both pregnant and I see tons of pregnant ladies every time I go out. Briana's having a baby shower. I doubt I'm invited. Terra probably is, though, so I'm going to see if she can take me and Azura along. Hehe. I'm so crazy; crashing people's baby showers.

I just read the last entry I wrote. Oddly enough, I delivered a seven pound, seven ounce baby girl the very next day at about twelve in the afternoon on our bathroom floor here at home. I waited too long to try calling my mom because I still didn't think I was in "real" labor until I started bleeding. The whole story would be rather draining to ( Read more... )

It's been crazy around here the past couple of days. Things still don't feel like they've gotten back to normal. I can't really remember exactly everything that happened and when it happened, so I'm going to try typing up a list to record all of this. It just seems easier that way ( Read more... )

Corey said he'd be here around seven or eight. It's almost nine and I'm still home alone. The party should be starting soon. Laura told me as she was leaving that she was sad that I wasn't going to be there. It's weird, but I feel so torn between everything. I want to be out, having fun, and at the same time I just want to be a mommy; Ii want to be ( Read more... )