This all feels so unreal; like I'm never going to actually have a baby, just be waiting for one the rest of my life. I think everyone jinxed me, saying I was going to go early. June twenty-second is finally here; my due date and also the night of "Ultra". I can remember when this day felt like it was eternities away. I need to go wake Laura up so ( Read more... )

If someone would've told me a couple years ago that this is how my life was going to be, I never would've believed them. It's so crazy how Corey and I met, then became a couple. And now, we're going to have a child together. She could be here any day. I'm just sitting around waiting for her.

I can't believe it's only two. I've been waking up earlier. It feels good. Corey left about an hour and a half ago. He stayed two whole nights, the first time he's done that in months. We ended up going to the party Friday night, but only for an hour. I think I have a doctor's appointment Tuesday; twelve days to go.

There's another Hot Springs party tonight, "The Ways of the Force". I want to go because Burr Rabbit is spinning, but I don't think it'd be in my best interest. Suprisingly, those little parties are really fun. They have more of a laid back house party-ish type vibe. Gabe's brother is spinning too. I thought Corey would want to go just to see him, ( Read more... )

I am so anxious for Azura to get here, but I am dreading my stay in the hospital. My cervix is closed and she hasn't dropped according to my exam at the doctor's yesterday. I have no signs of impending delivery, but I feel like I could go at any minute.

I think I can hear it raining. Happy Birthday to Corey.

I wish it would rain. I've been on bed rest since Wednesday because of high blood pressure. I'm going back to the doctor in a week and I think he may want to induce me if it is still up. I can't believe it's June already.

Corey came over and spent the night. I decided I love him again.

I hate living here. I need more room for me and the baby. I need to move out. These days are just dragging by.

My baby shower turned out pretty good. I got a lot of the things I needed and I think everyone enjoyed themselves. We got tons of pictures. Corey and I are fighting, I guess. I didn't talk to him at all yesterday. I have four weeks left to go in my pregnancy. I'm going to K-Mart this afternoon to finish up buying everything. It won't be much longer