After a lot of time spent growing up I realize you can't help loving who you love. And honestly, I wouldn't want to.
I just want to be loved.

I hate that I always always say I'll wait this time
wait for you to call me
to come to me
that I wont make myself feel 
more and more pathetic and unloved
by calling and third and forth time
but I can't ever seem to stand the waiting part
the loud loud silence of the phone not ringing
I hate that I always always  know
when I hear the third ring
you wont be ( Read more... )

          I woke up this morning with a black beetle crawling on my forehead.
I shouldn't believe in omens. (Just holes in the screen)

Topper has a fat lip and from what I can tell it's probably infected. I know we don't have the money to take him to the vet. Just like I know my parents will do it for me anyway if I ask.

I wish it ( Read more... )

My life has fogged up.

Just a few moments ago I did my routine in reverse. The much more modern, much more basic version of a geisha undoing herself at the end of a day.
I let my hair down and removed my sweater and tanktop in front of the mirror. I watched myself turn a tee shirt right side out, sniff it, and slip it on. I smudged off my lip gloss, my blush, undid my ( Read more... )

Between the perfect guy that I can't seem to land, and the man I can't stop loving, and the bestfriend I thought I could trust and was just screw over by ( Read more... )

I don't understand men. And I don't understand why they're attracted to me.

skyisgrey_

24 June 2006 @ 04:40 pm
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I don't know why Im the only person that seems to have this straight, but here it is:

THUMB OUT = love.
THUMB IN = rock on. / demonic.

Please get it right you crazy hip hoppin kids, you.

<3 Elle

Lately I think it's my fault. It's the only answer I can understand, and the only thing I can't fix.
I would give anything to hear the phone ring.

My blood is the color of my birthstone. it's a color that doesn't match the rest of me. If you bleed in space does it come out blue?

I am horrible at this.