I want my life back, i want to be me again, only problem is, i cant remeber who ME is any more

why wont this pain go away, why cant i et her go, every one says thats what i need to do, and G-d knows i have tried, but i cant do it, i cant stop it, i just want to be me again, and im afraid the me that i used to be has died and cannot be saved.... they say time heals everything, but wow is it taking its sweet time

why does this shite happen to me, i QUIT!

Save me from myself

let my days pass with no knowledge of the up coming nights, the lonley moments standing in the shower seem like hours, and i wonder what tomorrow is going to have in store for me, and before i know it, my feet are off and running, dragging my lagging mind behind them, and by the time i manage to catch up, my face has changed, and when i stop ( Read more... )

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im getting to the point where i dont even want to get out of bed in the morning, no matter how much i try to make good things happen, only bad seems to go my way, i cant get the help i need when i need it, i cant do the things i need to do with out it, there is just so manything in my life that seem to keep holding me down, i feel as though i have ( Read more... )

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im to the point where i say fuck it, i finally get my stupid referal to go have my back looked at (wich took them 3 weeks to get the refereal, and 3 months to get them to even get me a referal to see a surgeon) and no i have to wait another 2 months to get in to see the dr. so if they cant get things faster then im just gong back to Az and say fuck ( Read more... )