Well in my depression ive been working on my artwork, ive imporoved i think, well anyway, here they are, critisize away ( Read more... )

Well, im sitting here, not doing alot as usuall, spending my life looking at a computer screen, or sitting in a classroom, all i have to say is, i hope all this study and not being able to do shit, not really having anyone to talk to that honestly cares, or that i can get ahold of, really comes out in the end to get me somewhere, because if it ( Read more... )

Well...i had a nice long depressive rant about how i really feel, i think it was quite revealing, then the internet shut off and it was all lost, so im saying, screw it im not going to try and open up like that again, i did it once and i feel even worse than usuall so im not doing it again, im alive, and not well but that is no different than any ( Read more... )

Well......our friend Johnathan turned 21 on wendsday, yay Johnathan, and we threw him a party at our friend Richard's house, anyway, Richard's house is about as big as a three car garage, and we had in excess 100 people there, and at least 400 dollars of liquor that we knew of....anyway, i get ther and there are only about 10 people and i get a ( Read more... )

Oh wow....its been.....awhile......over a month......anyway.......im alive......and....sitting.......i havent changed much since my last uber depression......however, i may get to see Alicia again....provided i dont screw it up again....which i most likely will.....*sigh*

im dead.....yeah....thats the way it goes........sitting here dead...hmmm.....yeah......god i have to get out of here v.v

im depressed again, for reasons i wont tell, im finding stuff out contrary to what i was told about something important to me and it really makes me feel bad, so i think i just might dissapear for awhile or even indefinately.....maybe.....

im too tired to realize what is going on but ive thought about a few things, all the crap ive had to deal with over the years is enough for a lifetime and im 17...ive never had a relationship of any kind hell ive never even kissed anyone, it seems all the things that are spoken so highly of that are supposed to be the light of your life, i cant ( Read more... )

well....going back and reading what i typed last night, i kinda wonder what was going on....anywyas im ok now.....as ok as ever i suppose....

i might spell a few things wrong on this post cuase im drunk off my ass jesus is right here being the awesome fucker he is right here right now hell yeah bitchs thats right were drunk off our asses typing to you saying asses tits and pussy!! fuck yeah!! we gots alchool and i cant spell for shit, your all good jesus hell yeah you are im just ( Read more... )