I'm in! I start at the walk-in Counseling Center tomorrow!

Aaaaahhhhhh. Last day at Xcel: May 6th. What a feeling of sweet relief. I noticed the sun gleaming off buildings on the way home today - something I've been too stressed to notice for a while. I feel a heady sense of freedom. I even braved the phone and ordered Chinese food to celebrate... can't wait till it gets here! I'm starving...

Got cleared to be lead experimenter this week, got 48/50 on my exam (plus a possible 3 pts extra credit, which I'm still waiting on), and got below 155 pounds. Hell yeah. Great week. And the weather is gorgeous to boot - all puddles and sunshine. Now to go home and enjoy some hot coffee, Dragon Age, and a run.

I feel proud of myself. Proud! It's a little glow in my chest. Is it perfect? No, but it's good. Jeff said I was definitely ready to run participants myself. DEFINITELY! And he's real cute when he smiles. I don't think I've ever seen him smile like that, all teeth and flashing. It's good. Gives me a boost. I feel tired but also energized and ( Read more... )

Phew, OK. I crashed last night at 7 PM and got 9 hours of sleep. I still feel cold and shivery, but more like I'm ready to kick ass again. I have some energy. That's good ( Read more... )

I'm tired. What else is new? Jesus ( Read more... )

I know I'm late on this. Only not. Resolutions don't have to be made on January 1st ( Read more... )

I'm looking for serenity. I'm looking for that ineffable quality of gliding through the day, my muscles relaxed, not worried about time or performance. I would love to just feel the sun, savor lime water on my tongue ( Read more... )

here was my list of wanted things about 6 months ago. let's see what of it I have and/or have accomplished or would cross off, just for funsies!

(obviously some of these are in process; those are italicized, completed is in bold. or things I have had/gotten when I wanted them in the past year.)

muscular arms + legs
to be 120 pounds
to know ( Read more... )

Sometimes I feel like if I could make one thing, just one beautiful thing. Then maybe it would be okay if I were to die. I need to leave something behind, some kind of legacy; not children - something that points to me and me alone. I know that really we're all specks in an infinite blackness and eventually no doubt we'll all cease to exist from ( Read more... )