All the things I used to say
All the things that got in the way
All the things that I used to know
Have gone out the window

People wonder why I refuse to visit on the weekends, and why I always dreaded holidays. Its suffocating here, and I feel like I'm treated like a child.

I'm an adult. If I can be put in an orange jumpsuit and the lawyer calls me ( Read more... )

 Welcome back outcasts,
Because I've told myself
That it would be alright
About a million times

I can't make anyone understand. And I don't want anyone's pity, and I especially don't want anyone to feel sad about leaving me out.

But can't he at least understand how much it hurts? It hurts so much to have to be home every weekend, and to be excited all ( Read more... )

Have you ever honestly felt like your life was imploding upon yourself and even the ones who are there for you, you can't bear to face them out of embarrassment of yourself ( Read more... )

I wonder who was asking for me today, I wish my dad would ask for names. Or remember faces.

My grandfather died last night, so this Christmas will be kind of sad and awkward.

On a brighter note, he left me around $15,000 to do as I please. Although, mostly as I please equals paying back college loans and saving money for future investments when I'm ( Read more... )

Dear anybody and everybody,

I was up till 6 am re-discovering memories through my livejournal and others past entries. It made me realize that I'm not that person anymore--not that insecure little girl who refused to smile and see the beauty in herself. It also made me realize how much other people change, and how some friendships don't work out in ( Read more... )

Who am I ( Read more... )

So its been a while. A real long while.

Have I changed since my last entry?

Loads.

I saw Hairspray tonight with my mom and Kristen...then got in a fight with my mother on the way home. Ah, a normal time spent with her. Ha.

What? Surprised? No vagueness?

My life is pretty much going great. I think FOR ONCE I actually did good on a history quiz.

I wish I didn't know.

My life is going great at the moment. Well, sort of great. Today sucks because I have to do both my chemistry project && my history project. && then clean my room. I wonder what I'll be doing tonight...I hope I see Anthony at least once todayy. If you can tell, I'm putting off doing my homework because I'm a procrastinator && I'm lazyy. Besides ( Read more... )