Alright so I've come to a conclusion, one I've known for awhile. Actually it's a few realizations. One is I'm tired of shit getting in my way ( Read more... )

do you ever just have one of those days when you wonder why you were put here? Or if all the good you do in this world can sometimes mean absolutely nothing at all? I think this way a lot and it could be that I'm just randomly pissed off at the world on any given day. Could be that in the end even with people around me, I'm still all alone. I can't ( Read more... )

So now I think I have the beginnings of the flu. Just dandy. Nothing more than hate being sick. I hate just lying there in germs and such and all by myself really, cuz I don't want to infect anyone else and my dad is in chicago so house is all to myself ( Read more... )

So when I last left I think I was moaning about my job or my life or some other crap that I can't recall. Since then a few things have happened mostly good ( Read more... )

I dunno what is but lately I'm starting to feel like I once did and that's not necessarily a good thing. I'm stressed and just out of it and unhappy and anxious all at the same time ( Read more... )

Lately i've been feeling rather confused about just my whole romantic situaion. On one hand there's the girl i had feelings but know i can never have cuz she's practically legally married to her boyfriend and my feelings for her are fading ( Read more... )

Why is it that sometimes if you want something bad enough you can't have it no matter what you do? And this can be a rhetorical question too, but things like this perplex me, so im not looking for some amusement here.

I think the only good thing about this holiday is the monday off from work. Just an excuse for dumb people to set off fireworks when it isn't even dark or anything. Nothing beats seeing the scene in st george by the river with 100s of people viewing the fireworks. And 90% of them arent american, so go figure that one out ( Read more... )

Nothing real new to share. I got a slight salary increase and there's plans to move me into another department as someone's right hand person. Could mean more money. But money doesnt bring total happiness, although that part is kinda weird right now ( Read more... )

I've been here before. Wanting to do the right thing. Wanting to save the day. But how can I? I've done all I can and yet it's not enough. And yet if I get too close I might be blown backwards, like what has happened before. Different circumstances but same feeling. All because of what God has made me. How I care, when I only should only care about ( Read more... )