happy birthday, papa. you would have been 92 today. i just thought of that and am already feeling a little down. i miss you.

LET ME PASS ALL MY CLASSES.

i can't wait to enjoy life again. this semester has been such a wake up call...over break, i really need to get my shit together. organize, throw shit away, FIND some shit, and figure out whether this is really the route i want to take. i don't know if i'm really the structural engineering type. i need more interaction throughout the day, and ( Read more... )

man, i really fucked myself this semester. i've fucked up royally because i'm a lazy ass bitch, and now i pretty much have to lock myself in my room for the next 5 weeks. i really hope i can do this. i need to pull off straight B's and right now I have straight C's. that means straight A's on the rest of the exams. i know it can be done, but i ( Read more... )

I don't know....

I sold my Explorer today. I didn't think I'd be as sad as I am. I bought it on prom day of my senior year of high school...May 31, 2003. Sooooo many memories in the past 5 years ( Read more... )

I don't get to say that very often anymore, but right now I have nobody to hang out with and nothing to do. Earlier I was thinking about how I'd like to spend a night in doing nothing, but now that I know Danny's out at the skatepark riding bikes with his friends, I'm feeling bored/jealous/mad. That 50 mile thing is still fucking bullshit, but ( Read more... )

i'm not really feeling like typing a whole lot. all i can really think about is that something is wrong in my life. i'm tired of being taken advantage of at work and i'm tired of this "family" bullshit. i don't do well with so much SHIT at once, and i need help. i'm hoping my solution works. i'm going to revisit my catholic school roots. it's ( Read more... )

it's been 2 years since papa passed away. i miss him so much.

why does 50 miles seem so fucking far away? oh, because it is when gas is $3.85/gallon. fuck. i HATE talking on the phone, too. too much miscommunication and shit. i don't know. i'm just so fucking frustrated. i wish everyone i wanted in my life was in a 10 mile radius.