i need her. i have to make things right again. i have to go make things the way they used to be. she doesnt know how much she means to me. why cant she understand shes the only one i could ever love?

"did you know a heart was made of glass

i bet you didn't
and what happen when someon drops you

what happens when someone fucking stomps on your heart

IT SHATTERS.

and how do you mend that?

you don't."

ok computer seems to always be the album i always put on when im feeling bad. it just clicks in my mind as something familiar, something i know will comfort me in some sort of way....its interesting to think about all the different times i listened since i first heard it, the different moods, the different emotions.... the different maturity levels ( Read more... )

life has been pretty grim, as usual when i decide to post on this.. many of my thoughts from my past post still apply...i thought this was suppose to get easier not harder? Dramatic situations have made it almost impossible to be with the one i love, one of the few that actually understand me sometimes, but it does not really matter because she ( Read more... )

at this moment, i really dont feel like continuing my so-called 'life' anymore. EVERYTHING is broken...im sick of being in pain always i just want it to explode and be gone... too much pain ALWAYS IN FUCKING PAIN what happened to being happy ( Read more... )

HURT

its getting colder

this is really depressing

first dream ive had for a long time

im sitting in a public place, probably a diner... she is across from me. she mouths me some words which i cannot make out but i know exactly wat she means. it doesnt matter what the words were. that smile...fingers against her lips....'shhhh!' everything is ok

then i wake up

too vivid

if the time comes when i can even come close to expressing how i feel in writing...i will

everytime i feel it would be a good time to write in my live journal, and bitch about everything, i run into problems in my head, so i cant even have that as a clutch. i can never think of what to say or how to say it, and i close the live journal window. well, im determined to not let that happen this time. i need to get a good flow going... let ( Read more... )