it's great to have a lot of journals, not really, but whatever. updating so people wont think i'm incredibly stupid, or maybe they'll think that because i am writing in so many different journals. whatever. fuck all of you.

whatever, life sucks ass, boring. why does this suck so fucking much? i wish i wasn't here, maybe if i had ran away earlier things would be better, but now things just suck. i keep crying myself to sleep. what the fuck is wong with me?!

there's so much i want to say but i don't know where to begin ( Read more... )

haven't written in a while. so this is it. jon and i have been together for five months and two days now. woot woot! i hung out with him sean and guy yesturday which was cool. i don't know, today is friday, doing the usual, getting trashed! school blows. yes i like torrie, so fuck off. but i love jon more, and there's no way i'd break up with jon ( Read more... )

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i met josh yesturday. he's cool. we got high, smoked two bowls, and watched half baked, talked about some things. today, mike (my step btoher) might let him use the car, which would be cool. i don't think scarey guy is really a scarey guy, tony says he knows who it is then he told kate, so i think they know, but they wont tell me. bastards ( Read more... )

hell yeah! josh is ocming up today and he'll be up until saturday morning. kick ass! that's fucking awesome! i can't wait. he's coming over when i get out of school. i'm gonna have a great day ( Read more... )

i'm getting sick and it sucks. i don't know what to do anymore. tomorrow josh is coming up, which should be awesome! i can't wait to meet him. damn it! i need a fucking camra! why the fuck do i have to go to school today?!

yesturday... i cleaned a lot, tony and i got into a fight so i ended up clenaing a lot, went over bored byt that's ok. jon, my mother and i went to see return of the king. my second time, my mother's four, and jons first. it was goods, as it was the first time. then we dropped jon off at his motel and went food shopping then came home and made ( Read more... )