i was bored. and i haven't posted any new pics in a long time.

( everyday i wake to find the back of my eyelids...and your image paints itself like a portrait in my mind. )

hey everyone. it's funny. this is probably the happiest i've been writing a journal. in at least 2 weeks. and i have no idea why. someone stole $40 from me last night. i went to scottie's beanery [coffee shop]. hung out with people. went to shi-sha. went to studio 35. they were showing fight club. fantastic movie. then all of us crashed at sister's ( Read more... )

blood brothers. kill me tomorrow. the daughters. i went to see them tonight. and they were simply. a-m-a-z-i-n-g. went with chad. saw a bunch of people there. lost my keys in the pit. overall it was a good night ( Read more... )

today is tuesday. but whats the difference. it's just another day of lies. almost everytime i meet new people. they end up decieving me. this world is not the same anymore. yesterday's standards have fallen. close acquaintances have taken off their masks. i find where hearts were most close. wounds lay most deep. honesty is not the virtue anymore. ( Read more... )

i don't know whats going on. miscommunication. whatever. but i hurt one of the only people i ever felt close to. i cared about her so much. i felt like she could see straight through me. and for once i was comfortable with that. i didn't even care that i felt hurt by her. she was one of the last people i'd ever want to cause pain. but now it seems ( Read more... )

i've been kind of upset about cassie. she told me that we've been fading away from eachother. basically she doesn't feel the same way anymore. i thought for once i had found someone different than the rest. someone that would stick by me. well. i'm pretty sure by now that it's gone. her feelings are gone. now only awkward moments will reserve where ( Read more... )

i accidently fell asleep this morning. so i woke up late. and barely got to the house to pick my mom up. 7 hours in a hostpital. and i don't like hostpitals. oh well. at least i finally got some sleep. i figured. i went without sleep for 43 hours. is that a lot? after the hostpital. i took my mom back. i went to brandons to fix his place. we were ( Read more... )

god. i'm so tired. i haven't slept in...33 hours. my brain seriously feels like jello.

i partied all last night with people. aftewards. i just couldn't get to sleep. so at 9. i took brad to waffle house. i got 2 hashbrowns. stared at them for 10 mins. and then tried to eat as much as i could. for some reason. i've lost my appetite.

my mom is ( Read more... )

just got home. went to red, white, and boom [fireworks] w/ sara and kelsey. the fireworks weren't bad. but they were disapointing. every year i make it up to be more than it really is. as a consequence. my expectations aren't met year after year.

in this life. i feel we make our own expectations and standards. not limited to the certain genres of ( Read more... )

hey. i'm feeling alright right now. i got off work early today. and i have tomorrow off. so you know what that means. too much fun.

last night was crazy. drinking. brad and adam were in my car and i got pulled over. i was still a little tipsy. we all thought we were fucked. turned out he pulled me over because i didn't have a front liscense plate. ( Read more... )