just sitting here. at tony's. about to go out and skateboard.

just sitting here. thinking.

i know i've touched on the subject before. but god i feel so meaningless. i don't even want to get up and go skateboarding. i might have a heartattack in 3 minutes and 45 seconds. why the fuck should i even bother ya know?

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hey. saturday afternoon. i'm tired. last night i got in at 3:30. yesterday i worked from 9-3. after work i picked up enrique from school and we went to comfest. had an awesome time. i ran into a lot of people i knew. suprising, but positive all the same. afterwards i had to drop him off at home. so i did that then came back to the festival. after a ( Read more... )

bah. i don't feel like writing so i'm just giving you the basics. i went to cleveland. stayed at samantha's house. woke up and went to cedar point. looking forward to this weekend. break from work and i have some nice plans. not to mention comfest. but one of my best friends. naiami. is leaving for germany in like two days. [exchange student] (and ( Read more... )

lovely day for a stroll.

going down to the bridge.

down near his house.

clutching his bible and a letter from her.

fell into the river.

pity no one was there.

no angels in the air.

and the morning paper ran.

one more suicide.

yeah.

life is for the ignorant and oblivious. far from the strong. the heroes in this game are us. we who are weak ( Read more... )

sunday morning. just got home. i have to get ready to go over to my dad's house. the family is getting together for father's day. i don't want to go. i'm tired. but hey, it's father's day and today is his day. why shouldn't i thank him for everything he's done for me....oh wait. i forgot. he didn't even care about me up until 2 years ago. god. i ( Read more... )

i can't sleep. my friend gave me an anti-depressant earlier and it's killing me. i'm wired as hell and tired at the same time. cassie wants to do something to help me. she can't help me 2000 miles away. just thinking a lot on life. i can't type anymore, my brain hurts. i think i'll watch some tv...god this was a short entry.

sometimes you see right through me

angel, your married to that pain

angel, your married to your pain

ok. time to catch up. saturday night i went to this rave thing. i was there from 10 pm to 9 am. i think i danced 8 hours non-stop. it's a miracle i didn't have a heartattack. it was worth the admission fee. i had a good time. i didn't really do anything sunday. kind of just recovered from the previous night. last night i went to a club. i danced. ( Read more... )

i dreamed of a woman that i will meet in the future. where? i do not know. but her inspiration stirred these feelings.

you looked so beautiful this morning.

your head rose from the pillow. your so cute when your sedated.

you. me. and this scenery. the background is wonderful.

i like how you painted the rain with your tears. oh, and the sunset ( Read more... )

The reason I refuse to take existentialism as just another French fashion or historical curiosity is that I think it has something very important to offer us for the new century. I'm afraid we're losing the real virtues of living life passionately, a sense of taking responsibility for who you are. The ability to make something of yourself and ( Read more... )