Is anybody out there?

So, I graduated. Other stuff happened too ( Read more... )

Things are weird. People keep asking me how I feel, and I don't really feel anything. Except lonely, tonight. My parents have to switch off between me and Maura because we graduate on the same day. It's kind of sad--other people have their whole families here to celebrate, complete with grandparents, little kids, etc. Garden party was nice, ( Read more... )

I'm done with my thesis, finally. What a horrible process. Between the pressure, the exhaustion, the doubt, and the guilt, I don't know what I'll miss most.

So things are kind of shit again. Not quite as badly as before, but enough. I tried to get an appointment with a counselor today, instead of waiting until Thursday, but they didn't have any slots. I cried when I hung up the phone. Then in German class, we watched the end of a Holocaust movie. Cried more ( Read more... )

I hate today, and I hate my thesis. Writing the introduction is SO FRUSTRATING. I don't even want to go into all the bits of why because it will just make me want to bang my head against a wall. I eeked out a single first paragraph in about three or four hours and then had to scrap it and start over. It's due tomorrow, and I have no idea if I' ( Read more... )

I am alive. This is good. Not everything is amazing or all better, but I am better, and I am handling things better, and I am ready to face life head on ( Read more... )

Here I am again at the music library. I sent out an email asking for someone to please cover my 3.5 hour shift today, but no one can/wants to. I just need to go home and lie still and pretend that everything is gone ( Read more... )

I am so frustrated right now I don't even know what to do with myself. This has been a shitty, shitty day. I got to Haverford at 12:30 to pick up the key for my 1:00 shift in the music library, only to find out that someone had lost the key, I couldn't get in, and when the main librarian finally called security to go open the building, I had to ( Read more... )

Leaving for Costa Rica tomorrow! I'm embarrassed that I speak no Spanish, but otherwise excited ( Read more... )