1. Your Middle Name ( Read more... )

Today I finally felt half-way human again after such a long period of insomnia. It surely helps that I take my antidepressants regurlary again. I got up today fairly early (for me at least) and felt awake and focused all day. I am now halfway hopeful that going back to university studies in fall is the right thing ( Read more... )

I started to take some medication again on friday last week. Since then I could not stand much food. The thought alone made me sick. It has gotten better today as I already had small sandwhich for breakfast and a small chocolate bar ( Read more... )

How many keys are on your keychain ( Read more... )

1. In one sentence, explain what ended your last relationship ( Read more... )

okay i admit it: i am excited. and worried. and so much more all in the same moment. i guess that i cant fuck up my life any more than i already have, so every step should be a step in the right direction, right? all of you who ever left your country of birth for good: Did te new country ever feel like home ( Read more... )

I decided instead of moving to england, paying lots of money that I don't have and study psychology, I will study online. Its called e-learning and the university of derby offers a BSc in Psychology. It cost roughly 5000 Euro, but you can pay as you study, meaning each module I study costs me 245 € and I pay for it when I start a new module. I ( Read more... )

i feel slightly better today, mostly because i got some flu medication and secondly because i am not eating much. hehe. i had like 300 cals today: a fat free joghurt, a diet cornflakes bar and some forks of chicken. i am not even feeling majorly hungry. at least the flu is good for something ( Read more... )

I just bought some dvds from amazon:

28 days - wanted that for a long time
the others - nicole is such a trigger
a german comedy called "Der Schuh des manitu" - very funny
robin hood- wanted that one for months (alan rickman is adorable in it)

i cant say i feel much better but at least i have something to look forward to.

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