I don't belong here.

I'm so tired of this ( Read more... )

I am so deeply embarassed by the fact that we can't take care of ourselves. It brings me to tears.

I am so embarassed that the only thing that saves us sometimes is the kindness of others.

I hate this. :(

Well, last week was much better. I even walked with Jason once! I am hoping we can keep that up! (I have a feeling it won't be as frequently as I would like to walk, but a little is better than nothing!)

I was very good about not drinking last week until the weekend. This week has been going well, too. :) I had a beer last night with Erin while we ( Read more... )

So far, I'm not doing so well on the not drinking until the weekend part of my getting my life back to positive. It's a small step, but for the past few weeks, I have been having 2 - 3 beers a night, where this week I am only having one. I WILL get to the point where I only drink on outtings and weekends, but I think that may take some time. It's a ( Read more... )

Goals for this week:

1. Don't drink until the weekend/specific outting for drinking

2. Walk at least once this week. Hopefully more.

3. More cleaning/laundry

4. Cook a nice meal for Jason

5. Paint at LEAST one water color of something.

It's hard to be positive when everyone around you has everything they could ever want without really working for it or trying hard.

I'm such an idiot.

So, here I am. Again ( Read more... )

Weird ( Read more... )

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