Out Out! for a girls night! lol starting at 2pm! lol...
I'm excited!

Lets have convorsations where I bear my heart and you see how little information you can give me... I feel like I'm playing a game ( Read more... )

I looked into your eyes and I saw cold and alone I looked into the mirror and I saw I was without... not with out anything but without the one thing I thought I'd always have... I hope you're okay... I hope you really do know what you want... because in a way I have to wait to make sure you'll make it again... with or without you I'm gonna live I'm ( Read more... )

I saw you... did you see me?
you mattered... did I?
I wondered... did you?
I don't think you cared untill that moment.
I don't think you know how too.

I said it in my head a thousand times... and I believe it now It's gonna get better I'm gonna be fine... convincing myself that waking up isn't a punishment given to me... I'm better but I'm not.. sitting in a room of stale love with now friends I look at them and thank them with everything in me that what happend .. happend... I see him through ( Read more... )

I'm going to play with my old crew!!! I'm so excited!

So it's over it's over and it's weird today I'm feeling like I wish I hadn't gone to see him yesterday and I wished I hadn't opened my mouth because I just miss him and that means I might not care as much as I tihnk I do... lol.. I mean your kind of in a daze for a while and instead of taking a deep breath and thinking I'm on the attack... maybe I ( Read more... )

I still wake in the night.. I still reach for you but I know the minute my eyes open that you hurt me that you lied with the ring you put on my hand and I know there's something so much better for me out there... someone who won't leave me groaping the air beside my head...

home from doctor.... two prescriptions... neither i have any faith in.

I'm sorry T for not talking.. I can't keep people up here...

I feel better I guess just being able to feel calm for the minutes where he's near... I know he's okay... maybe too okay... I head to my therapist and think to myself I don't want to be numb... I don't want to hurt or hate... maybe it will be different...