It's a welcome change living in South Bend, surprisingly. Of course, all the rain helps. I do enjoy the quiet, but will that last once the students start moving in? The apartment is quickly feeling like home, even with the strange living room setup. Did I mention there is a Meijer here? Hell yes! Screw you, Walmart! I've been increasingly ( Read more... )

So it has been awhile. Facebook has taken all my online attention. And I don't want to write. Writing brings up too many things, like feelings. No room on the agenda for extra-feelie time ( Read more... )

There are too many things to do and too many things I want to do, and even if I am able to get something done, in comparison, I've done practically nothing. Of course, it doesn't help that I keep pinching a nerve in my lower back. What the hell is up with that? Why is my body acting like an old woman? CURSES!

I'm getting keen on the idea that if were more self-confident, I'd be actively bisexual. This is not in any way to belittle my current heterosexual relationship. I do, however, feel unfulfilled by not exploring my desire for females.

So I just finished watching an episode of Nature on PBS about the Gorilla King. Gorilla kids are so cute. I totally want one now. They're like little black-furred Ewoks. Of course, I don't have a place fitting for a little gorilla, but the desire to possess one is great. Or maybe I should go to Rwanda and observe them there. Yeah. What is up ( Read more... )

It's been about 2.5 weeks since I started back on medication again. Day 4 of not living in a fog of pain and confusion. I'm reluctant to say I'm better, because I'm clearly not. I feel exhausted and scared instead of just biological insanity. It's as if I had always lived in a Dali painting and now I'm in the "real" world. Readjusting to ( Read more... )

Ok, so I've decided on a dungeonous (it's a word now, shuddup) background. Anyone with any pictures of dungeons, preferably without people in them, please share! Or point me in a good direction.

Practice really does help. Yeah, I'm slow to the concept. It just seems to be so difficult to be rational when everything seems so overwhelming. Anyway, I'm making progress, however slowly. I'm not very good at making habits or routines, so this is a huge obstacle to establish routine activity, even when it is activity I enjoy. And it has only ( Read more... )

1. Don't panic.
2. Don't talk about panicking.
3. Eat chocolate.
4. Do or think of something silly.
5. Laugh about silly thing.
6. Die laughing.

So I'm taking this painting class, and for our second project we're doing a still life containing glass bottles, flowers, and fruit. I have to come up with my own background and I'd like to do something dark and/or disturbing. I took a photo with my mobile phone of what I'm going to paint. If anyone has any ideas, please share!


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