It seems I have forgotten how to read and write. Is it possible to regress so quickly to a 5th grade reading level? This is all so frustrating. If I happen to actually understand what I've read, my brain doesn't seem to be able to analyze the information to apply it into coherent sentences, let alone conversation. My therapist believes this is ( Read more... )

Yargh.

Quit wags. Back in school. Trying to finish my degree (again), but the fast way this time. I just have to get through the year. I'm taking classes I am interested in, and at a light pace. Struggling to get over this flu virus I've had since Weds. It's been a long 6 days. I've done a lot of good things for myself this summer, but I'm ( Read more... )

I'm finally starting to feel like things are getting better. Therefore, time for radical life changes! First, I'll be starting school again in two weeks. I opted for a light load instead of overload. One point for me, yay. Also on my platter, a sufficient dose of weight loss. I'll be choosing healthier choices, cooking my own food, and ( Read more... )

I can't stick with much of anything. The more I try to do, the more incompetent I feel. I serve no purpose in this life. I was watching the beginning of season 6 of Buffy last night. Death was her gift and it was taken away from her. If I did something heroic, could I earn the gift of death? My cousin was considered a hero and he died, but not ( Read more... )

It had been suggested to me recently to write down 5 things I am thankful for or happy about each day. So here goes.

1. I accomplished 10 goals I had for the day today.
2. I love where I live.
3. I love who I live with.
4. Enjoying the beautiful weather today.
5. Giving my grandma a smile today.

If I don't feel like I have anyone to talk to, why don't I write here? My emotions don't make much sense to me. So often there is such strife in my mind without any compromise between emotion and logic. Sometimes, it's almost if they are at war and trick each other into helping one another, but never really helping me. I wish my grandma hadn't ( Read more... )

Oh yes I do! Anxiety still here. Not tired=good.

My time with Wags is coming to an end and I have to figure out what to do. There never seems enough time to prepare myself. I had so many plans for my time off, but oddly enough, I've actually needed it to recover. My good days are still few and far between the terrible ones. I'm almost off all medications, although I'm not sure where to go ( Read more... )

New computer had faulty dvd drive, had to return it. Right after spending a day in the ER for sinus/respitory problems. Got new computer, same model. same vista. I try one more time with XP. Everything seems great, my programs work, my monitor is recognized... then I try to play some music. No sound card detected. Hmm. Device manager... ( Read more... )