rain and thunderstorms predicted for tomorrow. great.

i started riad's narwhal tattoo and it looks so good. i did it mad fast too.

i wish i didn't have to sit in the house all day. i'm getting stir crazy and eating too much food.

i've done so much work and it makes me feel good.

i want to do more tattoos.

matt suggested a bowtie pasta on my earlobe. i think i'm into it. now i need feet tattoos ive decided. fuck. maybe an octopus. and a coyote. doing something silly ( Read more... )

i've lost 5 whole pounds this week ( Read more... )

weeks pass by and nothing feels new. nothing feels happening. life is certainly feeling static ( Read more... )

we just watched hard candy.
if i could only do what she did to people that hurt me. it's gonna be one of those things that haunts me for days. weeks, until i do something. what is there to do? find my abusers on fucking myspace and hunt them down? expose them? inspired and full of rage. trying not to use this as a trigger ( Read more... )

insomnia for two days.

cant even think straight.

someone give me some drugs. please.

i havent spoken to either of my grandparents since we had been kicked out so roughly and treated so poorly, so un-like family. but, let's not take it to heart, they're old. fuck that. they are not my family. both of their birthdays have or will have passed by tomorrow. i will not say a word. grandpa had pneumonia. i did not say a word. ( Read more... )

the show is tomorrow. the puppet is almost done. the machine is black and huge. the other projects that came in last night, along with their creators are intensely awesome. i love this thing thats happening. i can't wait to be with everyone at the same time, all in the same room, all at once ( Read more... )

if it wasnt due to the fact that i woke up with a dibilitating migraine yesterday morning i would have made it to the gallery with the rest of the gang. we went friday and got barely anything done. we went saturday and came to the painful conclusion that our animation project just wasnt going to happen. we did practice runs on the treadmill and ( Read more... )

all i can think about is moving to arizona. as soon as we get our silver smithing tools sent here and then packing my 7 boxes from my parents house, throwing out a ton more stuff and getting the fuck away from here ( Read more... )