backs turned tord me with glaring eyes and evil smiles ( Read more... )

they
tell
me
to
hurt
myself.
theytellmetohurtmyself.theytellmetohurttmyself.theyfuckingtellme.all-i-do-is-let-them-control-me-like-a-doll. i'm-a-dying-doll-in-their-hands.it never ends.can't*someone*help*me?all..i..need..is..to..be..loved..for..who..i..am. theyarerippingatme.everytime i get ahead i feel more dead. ( Read more... )

pick me up ,bleeding too long, right here, right now, ill stop it somehow, i will make it go away, can't be here anymore, seems this is the only way, I WILL SOON BE GONE, these feelings will be gone, now i see the times they change, leaving us, it seems so strange, i am hoping i can find, where to leave my hurt behind, all the shit i seem to take, ( Read more... )

lastnight...with the slam of a door i heard the worst news of my life. i have always had a HUGE fear of this happening. the news was broke and becca and i just looked at my mom in disbelief. my mom began to try and explain but couldnt finish cause she was crying to hard...i see a few tears roll down becca's cheeks. i tried to stay strong but my mom ( Read more... )