Old, stupid habitual reactions die hard. I scared myself this morning, as well as the one that i love most. I reacted without thinking, and while i assumed that it was only me that i was hurting, i was wrong. I cant keep my hands from shaking, i feel so ashamed. Thank god youre here.

Okay, so where to begin... yeah, i know, i should be behind bars right now. however, its been an unusual experience of circumstances over the last couple of weeks ( Read more... )

Well hell, i finally got the web hooked up at la casa, so now i can actually update this thing... i mean it, for real this time. so i guess ill just come out swingin. so i got in a little trouble last october when i was driving a friend home in molly's car, when i rearended a truck, disproving my theory that alcohol makes you a better driver. i ( Read more... )

( gangsta kittah )

I have always had a bit of apprehension when it comes to meeting new people. For the longest time it was because i thought i lacked the social skills to make new aquaintances. However, for certain people i meet, i talk to them as though ive known them all their life. this was true for the first time i met Molly's brother Eddie and cousin Jimmy. If ( Read more... )

Well, here we go again. another week of the same ol` same ol`. another weekend has come and gone and Monday morning is unescapably here. Friday i went out for the first time without Molly. she decided she had too much shit to take care of so she dropped me off at Koots where i met up with some of the guys from work. i was the first one there so i ( Read more... )

My name is Ben im 22 years old originally from Long Beach, California, however i've lived up and down the coast from San Francisco to San Diego. I grew up around the ocean and beach life has become a big part of me. I LOVE watching the sunset and rise, surfing, playing volleyball, music, playing guitar, drawing, using my artistic abilities and ( Read more... )