05/29/2006 ( Read more... )

I've also started a project. I'm going to write a single unrelated paragraph each day to keep my mind and writing skills sharp. It may be a poem, an action scene, anything I think of really. I thought I'd start with a silly poem and so I present, paragraph of the day: The First ( Read more... )

I've regained lucidity. I've been spending time with Beth and going back and forth over the line. She really cares for me. We aren't dating and I had problems dealing with it at first, but I have reached acceptance. I shouldnt try and love anyone like that until I can love myself and be happy with who I am. I dont know when that day will be, but I' ( Read more... )

I keep taking one step forward and two steps back. I'm calling the psychiatrist today. I cried for 3 hours last night. I can't give up though. I dont know how Im going to make it. It's all i can do to keep from breaking down at work and crying. I'm a wreck. Theres something deeply wrong with me and it scares and confuses me that I cannot seem to ( Read more... )

I'm doing better and worse. But mostly better. I've been on a slow spiral to failure/madness for a while now and I think events that transpired last night have finally snapped me out of it. I admit I have some mental issues and I'm seeking counseling, and I'm registering for school tommorrow. I've been running away through inaction for four years ( Read more... )

Soft Drink Flavor Fads:

Cherry Coke: 8.5
Wild Cherry Pepsi: 9.0
Mountain Dew Code Red: 9.0
Mountain Dew Livewire: 8.0
Mountain Dew Pitch Black: 7.0
Vanilla Coke: 7.0
Vanilla Pepsi: 5.0
Black Cherry Vanilla Coke: 3.0

Its been a while since I've updated, but its been a pretty busy two months. Work is especially draining this time of year, a lot more so thanks to my promotion. I'm now a customer service manager. I'm not sure how its gonna work out, but I'm getting paid more! So all in all, bleh. I'm also trying to go back to school.

Sigh... I've done it again

I dont know what to say. I just finished Advent Children and I cant stop crying. This was perhaps one of the most perfect moments I've been privaliged to witness. It was perfect. Not everyone will feel this way i'm sure, but a part of my childhood was just given back to me. FF7 was perhaps the first video game I played that drew me in, showed me ( Read more... )

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