well this is not a particularly wonderful day. i got an email last night from mike saying that he was having second thoughts about doing the show, that he wasn't sure that he could cut it because of how difficult beckett is, and that he thinks i should consider putting someone else in the role. the problem with that is that there *is* no one else ( Read more... )

oh yeah! well according to emode my theme song is dancing queen. and since i no longer have an unhealthy aversion to that song, it pleases me. but the real news is that night one of the directing class auditions went *splendidly*. oh man... everyone knows that mike is in my show now and they are all being nice to me, and also, when mike and ( Read more... )

well i am so sick it is awful. i have a headache, a sore frinkin throat, and a stuffed up nose and Gaaaah i hate it. i skipped three of four classes today because my head hurt so much that i couldn't even think. but tonight i have stuff that i have to do, ie improv, henry rehearsal and then (impressive fanfare here) the directing class auditions ( Read more... )

well. it was an eventful weekend. friday night was wondrous of course... there's nothing like ben folds to drag me out of my state of blahness. i love him so much...beth was so cute to watch... she cried at a bunch of songs, and i was wondering if that's the way i looked the first time i went. probably even worse... :) when he played "eddie ( Read more... )

well. tomorrow at this time i will have seen ben folds in concert for the third time in my life. it almost makes me sad to think that it will be over; i mean, anticipation really is part of it, right? and i just hope that he has a great day tomorrow and a great show... and that he leaves it happy. because he deserves that for making me happy ( Read more... )

well i just woke up. i don't know why, because i was really planning on sleeping til like one, but now it seems to me that i'm not that tired anymore. so i think i'm going to make some espresso to really dredge out the last bit of sleepiness and then... well then i don't know what i'm going to do because there isnt really that much to do. ( Read more... )

Five CDs from your collection that you will ( Read more... )

i've been thinking a lot about my friends lately. i don't think that i value them enough to their faces. i mean, *i* know how much i love them and how much i think about them, but i feel like they don't realize it because i don't tell them often or in the right words what i mean. i keep all these thoughts inside and i need to just breathe out. ( Read more... )

well i went over to frank's today and we talked... about a lot of things. and i discovered that even though we are so often far apart and so seldom together, we are always always the same when we see each other again. he was so beautiful, freezing and wrapped in a blanket. and his eyes are so tired now. so very tired. and i was so glad to be ( Read more... )

today was an odd day... i felt very slow and quiet all day. dan and i watched "state and main" and it's a really good movie and i love it and i love david mamet. but i was sad all day because of all the things that are making me feel strange and alone right now. not seeing nikki, kirsten moving, and now possibly frank moving too. rosemary ( Read more... )