Ever since dad died, its been harder and harder. Ever time i think that ive found myself, i just end up getting more lost. Right now, more than ever i need him, and hes not here. I cant take this, i hate it. I wish i was my old self. I became more sociable and  now i dont even know who i  am. I dont know what i want in life and i cant study. ( Read more... )

SAOSIN LYRICS

"Voices"

I miss the part, when we were moving forward now
(On our way down)
But maybe someday, I'll be something more than love
Just know I'll never tell
And when you're on your way down
(Through the clouds)
And you're waiting for your body's re-entry again

We speak in different voices
When fighting with the ones we've loved
We speak ( Read more... )

Weekend= not so much fun. needles in arms, swollen lips and running in the cold does not equal a fun sat night ( Read more... )

Well the year is almost done ( Read more... )

OHEMGEEE
im dont exams yay
now its time to chill the homies and go shopping. funny how i really hated doing this before but now i dont mind
im getting chanel chance. eekks. ive been wanting this for so long cept im cheap. so im getting it now. i dont think i want makeup for lik1546223 dollars are sephora. so ya
lets hang out with everyone k?
<3

ugh, school is a bummer. bio on first day. im not done studying. i've got like migraines that kill so much.
i've been thinking about him lately, which is just retarded.
i wish jen would leave.
my mom is making me and rich go to young drivers
i feel like im losing touch with friends
school is killing me
i love you all

Friday nights at my house= love ( Read more... )

IM FUCKING GOING TO KIL HIS FUCKING GUTS AND IM GOING TO FUCKING KILL THAT FUKING TRAMP JEN!
ARGH, IM SO FUCKING PISSED ITS NOT EVEN FUNNY
I WISH JEN WOULD FUCKING LEAVE THIS HOUSE. SHES FUCKING UP EVERYONES LIFE! FUCKING ASSHOLE

One year has passed and i still havent found myself. What am i going to do. Things have gotten worse at this house and i cant take it.
I cant focus, concentrate, i cant be myself. I hate this
Im lost.
I miss you dad. I love you way too much.

well..., its getting closer to the day ( Read more... )