so, in the past couple hours, i've accomplished more than i have all year. i went to the dmv and got a new license for my new address, i also renewed my registration. deposited 900 bucks into the bank. set up cable internet and phone for the new apartment. scheduled my test to get my GED. filled out a new application for OCC. changed my address ( Read more... )

so, today I've come to quite a few realizations ( Read more... )

i've been reading quotes for a while. ghandi, buddha..bob dylan.. and i feel like going through them all, every one of them can contradict themselves. they can say the wisest things and then 4 quotes later contradict everything they just sounded so insightful with. this just proves they're human. outlooks change day to day. and i think life itself ( Read more... )

  grandpa's 87th birthday..i think? anyway, i went to train for my last day of bartending today and my cheap manager sent me home because of overtime. whatever, i already picked up saturday night so it's his fault i'm not going to be trained in time. anyway, i went to dinner with my sister, grandpa, dad and others for his birthday, and i was really ( Read more... )

I want to finally put one of my songs together and go to an open mic. bob dylan inspires every part of me anytime i hear or read anything he's done. and i was reading his book and decided it's really something i need to finally just go and do. i've been writing them since i was in 4th grade and have yet to let a single person hear them. the time is ( Read more... )

i can't help but think about all the people i was a bad influence on in the past. everytime that part of my life gets brought up i can't stop thinking about how different some of their lives might be if i was never in it.i taught people how to steal. i taught them how to lie. i can't even tell you how many people had their first drink or smoke with ( Read more... )

you know what i can not stand? when the certain people pride themselves on being intuitive and can "see right through me". fuck you idiots. okay so one, a couple months ago tells me during his rant that he can tell that i am insecure, like thats not an obvious attribute about me. especially if you read this journal, which you do. another guy, tells ( Read more... )

i have a lot of dreams where i see my friend who died last year. and i always get really scared in them and wake up ( Read more... )

i had a break down at work yesterday. sundays are usually my stay in bed and order food all day, day.but i got tricked into working. i wound up running into the bathroom crying in the middle of my shift because i hate my job. i hate that im stuck at that job. i hate that im an asshole to my boss because i hate my job. and i hate that he hates me ( Read more... )

: ) i miss this feeling.