i never really update anymore. i still have a lot to say i just haven't been writing it ( Read more... )

flashback ( Read more... )

 so one of my best friends called me yesterday and told me she's pregnant and getting married. i couldn't believe. this is happening so often lately i don't even know what to say anymore. i want a family so bad, but i could never start one at 20 years old. she met him online too. thats crazy. my mom keeps dating online and its the weirdest things, ( Read more... )

god im so exhausted. work has been so dead lately that now that it's picking up i don't have the energy for it. im really just happy lately. like, the nicer i am to the people around me, the happier it makes me. which is nice. i'm moving out into an apartment with my friend kim. i haven't told anyone yet. i think my mom will probably cry with joy ( Read more... )

i got the my first ticket in almost 2 years today. it fucking sucks. just as my insurance was about to finally go down i get another fucking ticket. he lowered it to a 2 point instead of a 5, which was nice of him, but it still means my insurance will shoot straight back up to 1.000 dollars a month again. eefffffff that!! i'm so upset. plus i owe ( Read more... )

I'm writing a novel.

again.

birthdays are so overrated, i never really understood the point of making a big to do about being born on this day. it just seems pointless to me. but i used to always throw dumb parties and bake cakes for other people because they expect to feel special. i just drove my brother to his girlfriends house and we passed the memorial for the 2 kids ( Read more... )

i owe over $900 for taxes. how does that happen?! ugh ( Read more... )

nastalgia.

one of my managers said to me today " I know how you love to point out all of my flaws!" and i realize how true it is. how true that's always been. the sad thing is i really don't intentionally do it to be mean. my mom's always told me i do that all the time and calls me a rigged bitch for it. but then when she feels bad she tells me that ( Read more... )

reference January 7th, 2008:

#1: I was wrong. they'll be the same always. And so will your bond. I don't know what I feel.

#2: I make you the bad guy because I think you're too good for me. But you always manage to sway me into letting you back on my good side. I haven't figured out yet if it's manipulation or genuine.

#3: So much time has passed and ( Read more... )