i'm not celebrating my birthday this year. i'm closing instead. again.

i'm home alone drinking pina coladas. it's delicious and sad all at the same time.

i've been mean to a certain person at work lately because i feel like they're two faced.

end.

 i wish i was the naive little girl that does drugs and drinks and drives and gossiped and had sex. i wish i didn't care about everything so much. i remembered why i stopped talking to people. because i fucking hate the shit that comes out of my mouth. practice what you preach sista. everytime i speak i feel like an immature kid.

rilo heal me.

you know, the more make-up i wear, the more self-conscious and awkward i feel. when people talked to me today i wouldn't look them in the eye and when they complimented my make-up or hair i just grunted. i feel like a clown, or an old orangey woman or something. it's weird. paranoia's killer.

Everything about my body language screams leave me alone. I went to verizon, and as i was walking up to the door, one of the workers was sitting in a chair by the window staring at me and smiled, i guess anticipating to help me. and when i walk in i shift my eyes past him and walk right by and start looking at phones by myself. then when he was ( Read more... )

 work sucked today. i can't lift my arms or bend my legs because i'm so sore from skiing. and then i got the worst table in the history of tables. I never get bothered by my tables anymore but this family was beyond cheap ( Read more... )

someone keeps trying to steal my identity. of all the people's identity you could steal, you choose a 20 year old girl that works at chili's full time? come on now ( Read more... )

 I'm watching bush's state of the union address. And he's talking about all the ways we could make america the ideal place and everyone's standing and clapping for him. It's bullshit, he can say whatever he wants but he's been in office for 8 years and hasn't done shit. America's in the gutter right now, and if he really had all these great ideas ( Read more... )

 When the guy you're gradually starting to really like, unknowledgebly lets you down, eh it kinda sucks.

oh, i didn't go today, and i made maddd money instead. :D i don't regret that decision.

i don't think I'm going in the morning. I suck. I always get excited for something and then wind up talking myself out of it. I really need money, so i have to work. But if I want to actually start actually  acting, I have to start making time to actually go do shit. I can't be at chili's for the rest of my life. that would be hell on earth.

i was ( Read more... )

so i get to be in the moby video if i take off of work on friday. hahaha i didn't even know moby was still around. i get to dress like an 80's clubber which is exciting in itself.