so i just blacked out at the gym. i was so dissoriented, i still can't see straight. i don't get it. lately i feel like i'm always on drugs, and my vision's really messed up. i feel like i'm on acid. maybe i'm a lot sicker than i thought ( Read more... )

 watching the news just makes me realize how fucked up people really are.

my short term memory is shot. i wind up taking pills 5 times a day because i can't remember if i took them. i look at my cell 10 times in 5 minutes cause i forget to look at the time every time i take it out to do so. i almost never remember if i text people back. and i never know what day it is. i guess it's pretty bad ( Read more... )

 kanye & sunshine is so mind clearing. i suggest you try it sometime ( Read more... )

 fucking a.....

1] fuck. people really do change. or maybe i'm the one whose changed.

2] he really makes me smile.

3] tomorrow i'm most likely going to be seeing him for the first time in a year? this is going to be weird.

 I think I'm okay with just being me again.

 Today felt like a movie. Sometimes I see everything in a white haze that I can't get rid of, and I feel like I'm just floating through actions and the world is just moving around me. Sometimes I wish life was a movie. That way there'd just be one problem, one solution and a happy ending. One of my tables was talking to me about all the problems i ( Read more... )

i've lost all hope in the human race.
maybe i just expect too much.

 today was really hard for me.