hey guys - i guess, like most of the rest of the world, i'm going to migrate from livejournal to blogspot/blogger. so, if you want to "follow" me and blah blah blah, see:

http://slitwrist4mom.blogspot.com/

seems like that's what everyone's migrated to. and it integrates with gmail... so if you have a blogspot account, let me know. reading is good.

just finished watching the last episode of The Wire. it's hard to describe how i feel. there's always that malaise that accompanies the end of something so intriguing and good. you don't want it to end because it's such a wonderful distraction. art of that sort is definitely an escape for me in a way that i suppose drugs and other such things ( Read more... )

i am tired.
emotions are weights - i wish to cast them off.
it is time as i am done with this, with you, with it all.

i think it's about time that i conceded defeat. life -- you win.
throw up my arms; retire to the caverns; accept that which cannot be changed. i feel as though i've tried - but i'm not really sure what it is i had tried. i feel squashed. flattened.

a positive fate: i'll end up something like J.D. Salinger.

nothing feels right. yet again, i can't sleep or do anything else that requires any semblance of a routine or pattern. i'm caught in a rut and the things that i care about are collapsing around me. i'm not sure what to do. i don't feel like much of anyone or anything and it's bothersome to know this. i'm not even sure what it means ( Read more... )

been awake for nearly 40 hrs now.
my appetite is okay, but not good at this point.

i am not happy with my life.
something needs to change.
and i don't know what.

i'm left to think and think and think
and that's all i do. and it's killing me.
i miss her so much... and i just want this all to be over.
whatever that may mean.

sleeping less than usual lately. nothing new for me, but the nightmares are. and they keep waking me up ( Read more... )

insomnia never lets go of me anymore. i'll get home in a few hours and sleep till the mid-afternoon. wake up, head to Joe's for band practice. planning to leave that early tonight for my muay thai class. i have much aggression to relieve ( Read more... )

cripes. i have a bit of a sore throat right now and a slight fever. the weather has been nuts these past few days. i don't know if that has to do with my illness, but i assume so. insomnia is getting me now, too. not sure why. i always feel like there's something i'm forgetting to do. something is not right in my world, in my life right now ( Read more... )