She loves me, she loves me not

[slowdeath101]

I've tried to start over, but it failed. My life will never change, it will stay the same. I'll always be hurt, I'll find a way to be accused of cheating, I'll always conceal my true feelings and not let anyone in. I've learned a lot about who I am. I may be gay, but I'm not longer afraid of people knowing that. Trying to move on and leave the past

Comments

[chasezmclean]

Hmm...I don't know what all went down so I won't pretend to. All I know is that you'll pull through. Remember all the times we broke up and you swore you wouldn't get over it or move on, and you eventually did, as did I.

Like Larena told me, sometimes people have to be apart to realize they're meant to be together. Larena and I were broken up for two years before we even attempted the relationship we're in now.

Whatever you do, you can't hide you're feelings. That's what Larena did, she let others tell her that her and I shouldn't be together, that she would be happier with a guy ect. Whether, it's a guy or girl, it's still the same. In the end, she realized that I made her happy, not him.

I know how much it hurts to watch the person you love be with someone else, I've been in that position more than once. I was always left wondering why I wasn't good enough, and what I could have done better.

I'm around if you wanna talk.

Thanks

[slowdeath101]

Thanks Amanda, I feel a little better now. But she picked my frineds and she picked what I could and couldn't do. Then she says she wants to break up when this other girl came into the picture. She said I liked Amber, we wouldn't be together if I did. I hate girls and guys and I dunno how much I love her, maybe we do need distance...I dunno.

Re: Thanks

[chasezmclean]

If she did all of these things that you didn't like then how can you say you love her so much and that you'll never be able to get over her?

I've always told you that I don't think you should be in a long distance relationship. You're one of those people that need constant contact, that's not a bad thing, that's just who you are.

Re: Thanks

[slowdeath101]

It's not that I need constant contact, I need her to learn how to not lie and to tell the truth. She holds everything in and cuts herself, and if we broke up again, she would flip out because her blood pressure would go sky high and she would slit her wrist. I don't want her to do anything stupid, I'm just trying to look out for her. And it's hard to not be with her because her grandmother and sisters and Amanda all told me that I've been there the most for her and if she lost me she would be in a whole different world, so I think she needs me and I'm not going to turn my back on her.