❝I began to realize how important it was to be an enthusiast in life. He taught me that if you are interested in something, no matter what it is, go at it at full speed ahead. Embrace it with both arms, hug it, love it and above all become passionate about it. Lukewarm is no good. Hot is no good either. White hot and passionate is the only thing to

welp.
This sucks.

Happiness will never be mine, not entirely, and that isn't even the issue.
I just need to learn to be okay with it already.

I've learned lessons times too many, others not enough. In the end, do either really stick?

Stupidity tries

I'm interested in all that is unlike what I see daily. I dont disregard the regular, it has a beauty all its own. Im just itching for something different ( Read more... )

Considering that most of my living has been done internally these days, be it chemically or otherwise, I cant quite pinpoint how I'm supposed to share whats going on in there with all that is out here ( Read more... )

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yesterday was the day

without intention on my behalf

that my family found out that I am

no longer

on the

righteous path.

my stepmom approached me in our kitchen,half breaking down,the other composed enough to put together a few syllables

and she asked if I was now of the christain faith

i said no,i have none.

how terrible a thing to want something so badly that you are willing to give yourself up in the duration ( Read more... )

Ive been first and last

look at how the time goes past.

 with tobacco and ash sprinkled over our sheets like stars placed perfectly in the sky, his hands will reach for mine and for the first in a long time, my reaction wont be to pull away. I can only reach back ( Read more... )

Being this tired feels as good as it doesnt, for the most part though a numbness as so leaves me completely impervious to all things careful and caring related. Friends Ive had at my side for near seven years now are stabbing me left and right, but we all know that knives dont have your back. So if I seem a little withdrawn, forgive me. My faith in ( Read more... )