is ( Read more... )

 This change will be the second biggest in my life yet, ever;

Considering that the first was the passing away of my mother,
I do believe that this is a fairly significant thing to consider.

Time will tell.

More to come when my idealism can be certified into reality.
I can say that it will leave me flatass broke and out of contact with the people I ' ( Read more... )

'Days up and down they come

forget most, remember some

but don't turn none away.'

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It occurred to me tonight that I am possibly both the happiest person you will ever meet, and the saddest ( Read more... )

I've always gone through woven patterns of coming in and out of peoples lives, my own included, for as long as I can remember ( Read more... )

 silly
heart broken

A farewell picnic in Orange County then I am back on an aeroplane headed home
Departure at 11 in the pm

Of all the girls for him to of conquered next,one of my best friends.?
Befuddled

 The only reason we don't open our hearts and minds to other people is that they trigger confusion in us that we don't feel brave enough or sane enough to deal with. To the degree that we look clearly and compassionately at ourselves, we feel confident and fearless about looking into someone else's eyes. 
     -Pema Chodron

This may mean little to ( Read more... )

 The couch surfing embassador for my area just asked me out

what?

If I say yes, I run the risk of having to act like I care for the opposite sex right now. I dont, cant, must get over the ghost of relationships past
If I say no, Im at a loss as far as good surfing credentials go. Do I do this for some bonus points alone?

The possibility of enjoying ( Read more... )

I feel like someone
but that someone isn't myself
and Im not really feeling it
because the person that I do feel like
has no feelings. 

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I'm in California
just doing that thing I do.  
No extra ingredients of overthinking, please.
The cheese has done me in enough
I'm getting to be unhealthy again, only now I mind because it isn't like it was before where my pants would sag and I'd find myself smiling in return.
Nope, now goods go devoured;I've got a musical belly to prove it.
Drum drum ( Read more... )