i have been so damn sick the past few days. i just got back to gainesville and have spent the past 2 days lying in my apartment alone unable to move around without aching. but now i am getting better and the reality that i must go back to school tommorow is setting in ( Read more... )

i am sliding in and out of sadness right now. it's been a rough few days when i let my mind linger in dark places. i keep waiting for a response that will clear my head, but he is not writing. i told him to stay away- and he did. that is like a sucker punch in an unsuspecting side. this should never have happened like this. can't change it, can't ( Read more... )

it's been a rough past few days. tampa has got me wrapped around its finger again. this fucking town throws so many things at me that i am left to deal with ( Read more... )

it's been a long cold night filled with good conversation and past discouragements once again brought to light.

so- i just returned from a family gathering, where there was a sad underlying tone to the whole evening. my aunt has been diagnosed with cancer and is not expected to live through the year, so seeing her tonight, and being aware that this was probably the last time i would see her alive, made tonight especially difficult. if i had any notions of ( Read more... )

i'm tired. i am hung up on a boy that i cant have. i am in dire need of a shower and some 80's dancing. that is all. i am spent

i went to this yearly highschool reunion deal last night. it was a bizarre social setting. people i had been so close to (once upon a time) showed no interest in having conversation besides amongst eachother. i left early because i was caught off guard by how irrelevant my being there felt. so i went to dance, and had an amazing time. I am stuck in ( Read more... )

sitting on my computer in a towel, trying to figure out what to do tonight, or if i even want to go out. hmmm.... decisions decisions ( Read more... )

it has been forever since i last wrote in this thing. kind of forgot that i had one- then friends came up to me and were all "i didnt know you have a livejournal..." and now i think i will write in it for lack of something better to do ( Read more... )

i think i might hate people. is that a bad thing? i am so sick and tired of being shafted by people that i thought i could trust....maybe "friendship" is as romantacized as love. there is always that storybook romance that could parrallel to a genuine friendship- but we all know that niether of those thing actually exist. my best friend just fucked ( Read more... )