Drowning

They were the hardest 3 years of my life

I felt like I was drowning,

The life felt like it was literally flowing out of me.

And I was frozen in that water, stuck,

unable to even think, to move, to breathe.

I lived in routine,

I accepted what I had, told myself it was enough.

I doused the fire that was my longing for more,

even though it still ( Read more... )

That need to be held.

On those days when no body is around.

Those days when you see everyone else around you having fun

And your all alone.

Those days when you want someone to look deep inside your eyes

and understand you completely.

To look past the mask you put on EVERY single morning

And see the real you.

The you that you can't even find anymore.

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Your life is not being lived unless

You are brave enough to live it.

It's there for me, I can't see it.

But if I can believe in love,

Why can't I believe in life?

What do you do.... when the world is dying?

What would you do if you were dying?

I wake up each morning never truly awake and never truly wanting to.

To what?

To be awake?

Maybe the world is much too scary for someone like me.

Maybe living subconcious is a defense mechanism.

I live in routine.

The dreaded routine.

The thing that should be defined as hell.

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 omg livejournal is killing me!!!!!!!!

i can't even reply to anything or comment or go on some peoples' posts. lame!!!!!

guess who got a myspace?????? lol

My birthdays coming up...

I'm sometimes good at poetry. :)

So skool's doing good. and right now i'm dressed up.
Well kind of . i'm wearing make up and everything. 
i think it just makes me bitchy lol. weird. but yeah. 
This is how i'm doing so far.

Band -       91
English-   86
Geo-         96
Guitar-      94
Pre Cal-   95
Gym-        87
Photography      94
Science         100

I think it's the best one i've ever ( Read more... )

I'm just kidding.... I love gangsters ( Read more... )