i am in this huge "i want, i want, i want" mood. so here is a list of the things i really want.

1. ipad <3 <3 <3 ( Read more... )

i was 12 when i got my first pubic hair and my boobs begin to grow. i was 14 when i finally got a period. most girls lived for these days, but i dreaded them. i didn't want to go into puberty because i didn't want to deal with my reproductive system. my whole life has been a relatively healthy one. i am lucky that way. but it seems like every time ( Read more... )

It has been a long time since i have posted here on lj but what better time to post then when i need to tell the universe something ( Read more... )

it is the wee hours of the morning on thanksgiving. it has been raining all night. loud, hard pulsating rain. it whipped through my window and wet my chemistry book. it excited me for a moment. the thrill of the lack of control. i wanted it to take me in its arms and move my body to the rhythm. i wanted it to moisten my skin, caress my face, and ( Read more... )

So I am taking this Ethics class for Nursing school. The class gives us really grey area cases and we are supposed to use principle ethics from socrates and plato to make a determination. For instance, a man has Hiv, is getting married, and does not want to tell his fiancee he is infected. Does the doctor tell her anyway? Now, in my heart I want to ( Read more... )

so many entries are just a vent to get stuff off my chest. today, i just feel grateful for my life. i am so happy to be back home by 8:15 a.m. I had jury duty but was excused due to nursing school. I realized something wonderful today. This is where I am supposed to be. So much of the last 5 years has about getting somewhere. Feeling frustrated ( Read more... )

it is grey outside. it is supposed to hit 80 today, but it sure does not feel like it is going to happen. instead, it feels like the type of day you just get in your closet, lay down in bed, and sleep till the cows come home. i don't have an agenda today. i just know that i am getting a pedicure with jenny. i am hopeful of a blended strawberry ( Read more... )

I am writing this petition to the universe because i am need of your help ( Read more... )

so, the universe has rudely told me to stay home today. this morning, i was dong a friend a favor by taking her to the airport. i dropped her off and this bitch blocked me into my spot with her suv. i politely honked..not lay on the horn..but a small beep to get her attention and said, "hey can i get out?" she proceeded to cuss at me and tell me i ( Read more... )

it is 1:18 a.m. and i just had a wonderful day. so many of these journal entries are about anger, disappointment, sadness. so few are celebrations of what is good in the world of smalleen ( Read more... )