Tables turned, heart's situations mirrored. Revisiting old letters of confession brings a burning to my throat. I've been here before, but this time I'm on love's side which kept constant and honest, held me in suspension until the day I could release back into it. Give me the strength to pull her through. Give her the strength and foresight to ( Read more... )

I'm really happy.. yup yup, happier than a pig in shit. There's NO pressure, from anywhere.. slow and steady. I've never done this before and.. yeah, it's a bit hard at times.. you know.. not being where you're used to being by now.. but it's very.... refreshing. I feel good, everything feels good. Learning, growing, laughing.. having a grand time ( Read more... )

It rises within me, this heat, and creates a presence of pressure unknown to the layer's of this spirit before her.. before what we collectively understood as beauty. This house of mine, these fingers and toes, this mouth and nose, these windows and this soul have been opened to a fire so ablaze with inspiration, it could reduce this entire ( Read more... )

"Shameless ( Read more... )

This winter and spring have been quite a time for purging and change. Everything has been tossed up and thrown around.. living situations, jobs, friends, interests, wants, needs and inspirations. I'm in the process of moving out of the love shack.. leaving Jen (my roomie) and moving back home to save money untill next February when I'm making the ( Read more... )

I feel stagnant in many ares.. uplifted in a few. I'm on a constant search for more openly fitting pieces of my figurative "puzzle". It's been what tastes like many vacant weeks of not writing, ranting or expression of any form. I've been hovering over the busy busy hustle hustle of nothing and everything that comes short of anything that feels ( Read more... )

I wish I could show you the indecency of the actions around you, protect you from ever becoming "guilty by association", hold you high on wings of feathered lovlies.. but you have grown a neussance on your side in moments of weakness.. manipulation has fogged your view of where you have been, where you are and where you're headed in this flight of ( Read more... )

It's time for change..

For real this time.

I'm sorry that things didn't turn out better.

I love you with everything in me.

Hopefully things change in the future, it's all in your hands now.

I decided that I'm going to make a NY resolution..or a few ( Read more... )

thinking thinking thinking
talking talking drinking
thinking thinking
talking drinking
drinking....smoking...
drinking..
she's lying here..
my heart, my past..
everything that i think of
as home..
everything..this night...
new old loved gold..
you... i... deep breath in
deep breath out...
pulsing pulsing...empty..lost..
TIME TO FOLD