I need someone who

Hears what I am not saying-
----Suprises me with little moments
Loves my inablility to keep quiet about percieved injustices-------
-Wants to travel everywhere we've never been
Pierces me with his eyes
---Wants to love my family
Doesn't fit in TOO well with my family-
Someone who treats me like I need protecting, even when I claim to be ( Read more... )

I'm all out of sorts today. As if that's anything new...

What is important to me right now?? I have no idea.

Sometimes, something pulls me back to this old journal ( Read more... )

Reading my old posts makes me wonder where my brain was at. 
I wish I could write in this thing like I used to, but I don't even know what I'm feeling lately, let alone articulate it in writing.

 
There's ten hours between us tonight
And I feel like my heart will break
Cause it's been way too long
Since I've last seen your face
What I'd give if you were here with me now
And I was lost in your touch
If I know my heart
There's nothing I've ever wanted so much
But to love you
Just to love you
It's all I wanna do
10 hours by Wareen Barfield

Sometimes he ( Read more... )

I'm not very good at this. I just feel anxious and alone. I hate knowing that everything is changing. According to him, I'll get better and I'll adjust. He's "used to" this, so it's not  a big deal for him. I just hate the uncertainty of it all, and I hate being sad all of the time when he seems to be doing just fine. He says he has a different way ( Read more... )

Today was the day I've been dreading. I feel numb, whatever that feels like. 
All I can hope for is that if it's meant to be, it will be. 
I'm going to miss having my best friend beside me every day.

"Scars take time to heal
Before another bitter word gets loose
I was hoping we could call a truce
Cause nobody wins, we both lose
Hearts get broken and love gets bruised
When we light that same
Old fuse again and again
Nobody wins, slamming doors
We've both lost this fight before
And I won't play this game no more
Cause nobody wins
Darlin' we got too much ( Read more... )

It's been an eventful weekend. Joey got selected, and he came home Friday. We've just been doing alot of talking, and trying to process all of the changes that this will entail for both of us. He moves to Fort Benning May 20th, and will be in training for six months... after that he'll be deployable.  He'll have three-month long missions, then he' ( Read more... )

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