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This is a very sensitve topic. One that I probably will regret posting on. The whole reason I'm here at MSU is for a certain group of 300 people. The Spartan Marching Band. The only problem is I'm not a member of this glorious ensemble. I am a participant. I have no interaction with band people outside of rehersals. In the rare instance that I am, ( Read more... )

Well Happy New Year to all of you. Classes came back and I failed them all except two like I had expected. I'm now on probation in the School of Music. Even with all this failure I feel great. I get to start fresh this semster, especially with the lessons I learned this past semester ( Read more... )

When it seems it can't get any worse, it does. When I feel I've hit rock bottom, I fall through another crack. Some poet said that. Or maybe it just came out of my convoluted little mind. I can't take it anymore. It's been failure after failure after failure since College Works initiated it. I'd never failed, outright failed at anything in my life ( Read more... )

and so the spiral comes to a crash... I hope it's a halt. I'm no longer on the SAF Board. My classes are now a lost cause and I completely fucked up at the studio recital. I can't keep going on like this. Thanksgiving was a nice break from all the stress, but I find myself wanting to go back.... I don't know what I want, I just want to die....

Well, It's been a couple of days, yet I feel no better. I may even feel worse. I've missed a payment on something and now the creditor is calling home to see what's up. The mother is very suspisious. I can't tell her what I bought, she'll kick my ass and tell me it was a stupid purchase. I understand I'm being choked by my debt. I can't get out. ( Read more... )

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Well, I got to pick up a supervisor shift b/c the normal supervisor got sick. Awesome, I get to chill out tonight. The Spartans are now officially the worst team in Big Ten football, and the laughing stock of the NCAA. How do you give a team its first conference win in 2 seasons, and play worse than my high school team? You join Spartan football, ( Read more... )

Well, the Spatans are officially 3-1. Anyone who has been around Spartan Football long enough knows the sucky truth. MSU is the #1 team in the nation at losing games. Rarely are they beaten. Always they beat themselves. Life is very stressful. I have zero time. SAF, KKY, SMB, SVB, and NR make my life a living hell. Add music major stress to the ( Read more... )