if anything could be more confusing i would like to know. i'm lost between how to give you my attention and let you make your mistakes, i'm lost at how i'm suposed to hold on through all this since it is what you want, and i couldnt be more lost on how to let go. i hate this up and down and what it does to me. i hate knowing that you are allready ( Read more... )

well back here again. school and everything have been going awesome. getting us all together at the right time has been a bit of a hassel, but a good time was had by all last night. today sucked. just sucked. as a matter a fact.. everyday continues to be today is worst than the last, so every given today, you are seeing me on the worst day of my ( Read more... )

i need to feel your passion during all things. from the second you become a person and not just a voice at the end of a cord. i need your emotions to pop like a coark the second you lay eyes on my face, and take on my warm embrace. i need a physical relationship that passionate, you love and waaaaaant what you doing so bad... let me hear, let ( Read more... )

how to explain how i'm feeling.. this is tough. everyday for the last week i have have reached to the depths of my mind thinking about her. my heart is there, but not completely. why cant i just love her all the way? what am i afraid of? why is it i find myself on the couch tonight sleeping next to a pillow i wish was her? could it be that i just ( Read more... )

well well i find myself back to my journal... what a way to start off an entry. well, hello. i'm back. thank you for caring. ha. well not being sick has been great. i picked up right where i left off; out every night, doing it right. crazy times have been had, it's sad to think (please dont hit me) that summer is o-so-over quite soon. =*( i dread ( Read more... )

i hate being sick more than anything else. it's such a waste of time. if this were just to be a sore throat and my head felt fine all would be great. all this time on my couch as given way too much time to think. i just need to be better so i can get to work and see everyone again. im too lonely
<3 richie

it's been quite a while since i wrote in my journal, so i shall sum it up to keep myself up to date... from april 12th?? jesus christ ( Read more... )

worst time to be sick ever. i have so much work that i need to do today to be prepared for the next week that it hurts. it shall be a miracle that i get it all done. anyways, i'm off to my day of soup, tea, and work.
<3 richie

time for an update. i shall keep it brief. school this semester is the biggest bag ever, relationships can be miserable, and jo and kait are in another country ( Read more... )

"because to say that i love you doesnt convey it all the way. i am in love with you ( Read more... )